| herro. its past midnite & im up on a school day. shameshame. ha, sike. iuno, im bored nd cant sleep so i decided to blog. i have a strong temptation to make a new xanga, but i`ll wait a lil longer till i'll do that. still need to think of a good name anyways; suggestions are appreciated. =) anyways, so earlier i was thinkin .. "damn, im fifteen." i mean, thats not even really old, & i still have a looong way to go but like, crap, i still remember when i was five nd junk. i still remember how i acted, nd some of the things i thought. i remember the first day of kindergarten, nd how i wore the same dress three days ina row cuz i liked it so much. lol nd how i was super duper shy! now here i am, second year in highschool. still kinda shy, but a lot more outgoing. lookin back, seeing how i evolved into the person i am today. iuno, its weird. nd thinkin i still got a whole life ahead of me, its kinda scary. its even scarier when you still dont even kno what you wanna do wiff your life. everyone knows i have no talent. i try something nd always fail. & thats exactly what im afraid of doin wiff my life. all those future questions everyone thinks of -- will i get into a good college? will i have a good career? am i gonna be successful? nd like, i wanna go to college & everything, but im scared i won't put any heart into it nd drop out or something. nd i don't want that cuz i want to help my parents out nd whateva by gettin lots of mula. =) my moms always like "be a nurse, be a doctor" nd yadayadaya. but truth is, i really dont wanna. i dont want to do something in the medical field. not even a lawyer er something, or any of those fancy jobs. blood freaks me out & law junk pisses me off. haha. iuno what i wanna do. nd like, isnt highschool suppose to help you out wiff that kinda junk? shoot, my school def isn't helpin. its new nd everything so it practically has nuffin. jus art, music, drama, business, writing thingies, nd i honestly think thats it. no cooking thingersz, no psychology ( which i'd prolly be interested in! ), no whateva. BLAHBLAHBLAH, but then again, its like.. why am i thinkin bout this, im only fifteen! =) .. i still gots a few years to think bout this stuffs, so no worries yet, rite? - ew, this blog is gross. im def a happy camper! 
i rove my parents. =)
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-- anyways, then we was off to BLD. funstuffs, other than some minor stupid sturfs, i had fun. 
freakinn homo... then when i went to chemistry, i tried askin my teacher literally a mmillion times why its different, nd he pretty much flat out ignored me everytime. nd whats even gayer is im not the only one this happened to. ugh, this guy sucks. he still doesnt even kno my name nd its november! lol whattadumbass. ergh, whatever. "i`ll try harder this marking period."